Infront the GATE

Cairo Airport .... Waiting ..... STILLL waitng ....
But this time it is the good kind of waiting. A "wait" with some and some more hope that something is to come.
To quote Damien Rice (A singer) : "May you be satisfied to never know ... why? "
Three hole month of trying and failing and trying and failing some more and more until you wish that it would be better if they just told you that nothing can be done. But still they give you hope so that you return .... and fail ! This was my state dealing with the army release papers. Not important what that problem was, it was just the thing, the obstacle that kept me from leaving and that was literally going to ruin ... well a lot.

Returning to "May you be satisfied to never know ... why?" why ? Why did I go through all that? Why was it necessary? ... At the time I didn't know .... I'm not sure I know why even now ... But I can try none the less.

Think I have to start with physical and touchable change .... hmmm .... lost a month of my studies .... NO ... Being under constant stress .... that could be preparing for what comes, unless we believe in the medical research ..... So higher blood pressure .... heart problems ..... NO ..... that isn't it ....

Again may "May I be satisfied to not know why? "

Well no physical then ... So what have I learned .... To much paper work is never good .... NO .... that can't be it .... NO .... I have learned so, so much more than that .... I have learned that I have made friends and have a family in Egypt that I can't forget .... I learned that this will always be the place where I have spent my childhood ..... I have learned that while I can move on, I can't forget where I have been ... That my family and friends will always be there no matter how far I am and how much is between .... This was, still is and will always be my country .... And the biggest lesson of all "Al7amdollah ..... Al7amdollah no matter where what or how you are?"

So thanks to all who have taught me one of the greatest lessons I will ever learn .... Thanks to my father .. little brother ... family .... friends and .... well I guess thanks to the .. army ...

"May I be satisfied to always remember"